I had to reframe my entire day yesterday. It was very stressful from the time I got up until I got home around 4:30 pm. Money concerns, car issues, having to drive a car that was acting erratically when there was a threat of thunderstorms and flash flooding, getting caught in one of those downpours in a spot that was starting to flood…It was rough going for a while. A couple of times while I was driving, I felt the telltale signs of an oncoming anxiety attack, but it never came. I think a mixture of Ashwaganda root and Chaga mushroom tea in addition to a mushroom mixture gummy helped a lot. Once I got home, my mind started to go over all the ways it was a terrible day. Then I stopped myself. In reality, it was a great day that I had to be grateful for.
It’s really easy to sink for me to sink into a self-pitying mode focused on the hard parts. In dwelling there, however, the good parts get completely overshadowed. I recognized that this is a thought pattern I need to get a handle on and stop letting it take over.
Yesterday was miraculous. Our mechanic gave us a break on the repairs done on my husband’s car yesterday and allowed us to pay half and we’ll give him the rest shortly. My car is running well enough, and it got us where we needed to go and back safely. When the downpour started and I couldn’t see because the rain was so heavy, I was able to slow down enough, and there were no cars near me when I drifted out of the lane for a moment. We avoided any accident, and I had enough visibility to see where the flooding was and get around the worst of it, easing through the part that I couldn’t avoid. We enjoyed a nice time with family and made it home with no serious issues.
Despite all the stress, everything worked out well and it could have been much, much worse. I have to start looking at things through this lens instead of getting stuck in the weeds. And because we attract what we put out into the world, I’d much rather be drawing in the miracles than the stressors.